The yogis who have traveled the path before us, have left us a troubleshooting guide called the 9 obstacles of yoga.
One of the obstacles is Styana, which is adisinclination towards performing ones kartavya or duty.
We avoid our practice and create excuses for not being on the path and doing the work.
We can say that these obstacles don’t happen only to yogi’s, but to anyone in different ways.
About a year ago I was battling in my head with something I needed to do for myself an my business but I couldn’t get around to do it.
I definitely recognised the importance of if and knew I had to do it.
I would wake up in the morning and think, “today I am going to do it”. I used to apply the the technique of getting it done 1st thing in the morning to get it out of the way ….. but nothing worked.
Do you want to know what it was?
It was simply Facebook Lives. Nothing as scary as sky diving …. But what a fight I had with myself!!!
I wanted to start doing Facebook Lives about things that I have learnt during my yoga journey, during my journey of healing from depression and transforming my life.
I had everything on my side to do it.
I am not shy, I can talk about this subject for hours, I could fit 10/15mins a day to do that, but that little voice in my head would go like “is actually anyone interested in what you have to say?”, “what if you can’t explain your self properly and get muddle up with your words”, “what if people misinterpret your message”, “what if this, what if that …. bla bla bla bla bla …….…
The thing is, there is never going to be the perfect time, there’s never going to be the perfect life arrangement, this actually comes after we commit to do it and do it.
Did it ever happen to you that you do something that really planned and ended up being just at the right time and it worked out much better than you thought?
It happens to me all the time!
So now that’s my rule of life. I follow my instincts, my willingness to do something and I do it.
This reminds me the time when my mum decided to go back to studies in the evenings, going to the same school we were going. My mum was from that generation when kids would just do the primary school, learn to read and write and then would go work on the fields.
Looking back I know this was extremely difficult for my mum, with 3 kids of around the same age, I was about 10yrs, working along side with my father and not having the support of my father. Lets just say he wasn’t a very supportive man.
Even though the environment was not benefiting for my mum to take the time to go study, she still did it and it was a million times better than anyone expected.
She started feeling so much more confident about herself, we were very proud of helping her with homework, to help her study for the exams, we would help her even more at home because we knew she would be at school and couldn’t do much. My father surprisingly didn’t do anything to make it worst, he actually backed off.
When we know it, we just know it, we do it and everything around us just re-arranges its self to support our decision.
So… why do we keep going into Satyana (making excuses not do to something that is good for us) if deep deep inside we all know that it is what we should do.
Because like with everything else, in my case, with facebook lives I would be exposing a lot of myself and the fear of not being liked kept shutting me down.
In my mum’s case, I am sure she had to get herself mentally prepared before doing it and win over her fear of failing. Failing in the eyes of her children and being another reason for my father to put her down.
But … the reality is that we can not let our fears consume us and determine the direction of our life. The fear will just become bigger and bigger and bigger. We will feel stuck and feeling even worst about ourselves and about our life.
It is so much more diminishing to our health NOT TO DO something because of fear than do to it and not liking what we did.
So next time you want to do something that it is good for you body, soul and mind but Satyana comes to stop you, say to Satyana “ Thank you but no thank you.”
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